For days, I've been thinking, "I'm almost out of time! I'm almost out of time." I've been running around like Chicken Little. I've been trying to get everything done, and the clock just kept ticking faster. There were never enough hours in the day. My usual peaceful, happy spirit turned irritable and impatient. I'm sure there were beautiful moments I completely missed in my stress.
Now I'm really out of time (pretty much), and there's a lot that will be left undone. Thankfully, I'll be back up to par in a couple of weeks, and I can pick up where I left off. Even still, all day long I've been thinking, "What if I was really out of time for good?" It made me think long and hard about how I've spent the last few weeks, the last few months, the last few years. How did I spend that time? Where did I invest my energy? What -- or who -- got shortchanged?
That last one gets me every time. I never want to shortchange my husband or children, but in fact, they're the ones who suffer when I over-book my calendar. I want to challenge you to think about your own life.
- Do you make time for God, or put Him off until you're less busy?
- Do you have healthy habits to disconnect from work when you're off the clock?
- Do you smile and look your kids in the eye when they enter the room?
- Does your spouse know his/her needs are important to you?
- Do you laugh? A lot? 'Til your belly aches?
- Do you strive to make a difference in the lives of others?
- Would you leave the world a better place if you left today?
I plan to wake up from surgery and revisit this list after I've recovered. But the reality is none of us know how much time we have left. You could be gone way before me. Whatever is holding you back from living your life to the full, move it out of the way. Start fresh at living your life in a way that would honor God and others long after you're gone.
I will if you will,
P.S. I've always loved this song ("Sing Together" by Train) and wanted it played if something ever happened to me. I adore the message. Nothing is happening to me this week, but I'll share it any way. Enjoy!
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