Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Loop of Lies

Over the past few weeks I spent a lot of time flat on my back in bed. My reconstructive surgery was successful, but much more extensive than planned. Then, I had a complicated recovery with more extreme allergic reactions. The details aren't important. The point is I became depressed and isolated  an easy target for the Enemy of my soul.

It didn't help when I received news that my long-term treatment plan is quite involved: follow-up appointments every three months, scans when medically appropriate, additional monthly preventative chemo (shots this time), and at least one more surgery in the near future. I thought I was done. Apparently, however, I still have some work to do to safeguard myself as much as possible from a recurrence. 

So while I was recovering, pondering what lies ahead, the Enemy started whispering:
  • You're not done. 
  • You'll always be considered sick.
  • And with every headache and every cough, I'll remind you that the cancer could be spreading.
  • You can't trust God that you've been healed.

This loop of lies played in my head over and over. The Enemy was (shortly) successful at distracting me from my calling. He lured my attention away from my Father's providence and protection, and then he trapped me in a heavy net of darkness. 

Can you relate? Because the Enemy whispers lies to all of us:
  • You're not good enough.
  • Who's going to want you?
  • That kid will never get his life together.
  • You're unforgivable.  

It's easy to succumb and get stuck. It's hard to fight back, but you must. I'm thankful to know where to turn to combat the Enemy. And I'm thankful I'm surrounded by family and friends, who speak Truth and Hope into my life. Believe me when I tell you that for every lie he whispers, there is Truth in Scripture to prove its falsehood. And if you know Jesus, you've already won the fight for your soul. The Enemy can only drag you down so far as you will allow!

I decided last week to shout a holy "SHUT UP!" and start living again like a child of the Most High God. A highly-favored daughter of the King. A foot soldier for Jesus who has so much fighting left to do. I decided to see my extensive treatment plan as a gift  instead of a burden. I'm thankful my doctors are treating me aggressively and keeping a close eye on me. I'm thankful we can afford my care. And I'm thankful I'm already seeing great signs of improvement despite frequent setbacks. (Would you believe I won a health challenge at work? And I'm walking a 5K soon?)

Maybe you need to stop believing a lie today. Maybe you need to silence the Enemy and arm yourself with Truth. Don't waste one more minute in defeat  because any moment you spend believing a lie of the Enemy is a moment you'll waste living God's plan for your life.

Let's live in victory!
Emily

P.S. If you don't know Jesus and can't find peace, find someone you can ask your tough questions. And if you can't find someone, you can always ask me. :) I can't promise I'll have all the answers, but I'm certainly a safe place to start.  

Ephesians 6:10-20 - Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.


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